This is how I started hating my job

Have you ever loved your job? You feel at home there. Soon you realize you love your colleagues and they become part of your family. You make compromises for them, they are always there for you and you feel safe. You love going to work and you miss it on your vacation. It's the best feeling ever. I felt it a few times. But there is a big problem about loving your job. You take everything personal. And when the day to leave comes, you are devastated.

That day came for me. Some bad things happened in the company I work for, because of the Covid-19 crisis. And it was the moment for me to go. And my heart aches, because I know the love is mutual and I will miss (almost) everyone there. And even worse – I know they will miss me too. And they need me for my expertise and my friendship. So this is how I started hating my job. I wasn't brave enough to leave and also I didn't want to disappoint my colleagues, so didn't do anything. I just went to work every morning hating it. It wasn't safe there anymore and I didn't feel loved. I started blaming them for my unhappiness and it made me even more depressed.

So now I need to make a decision. Should I stay there and hope someday everything will be like before or should I go and disappoint everyone. If you have any advice for me, please feel free to share it. It will help me a lot.