It was not enough to be the last guy she kissed. I wanted to be the last one she loved. And I knew I wasnโt. I knew it, and I hated her for it. I hated her for not caring about me. I hated her for leaving that night, and I hated myself , too, not only because I let her go but because if I had been enough for her, she wouldnโt have even wanted to leave. She would have just lain with me and talked and cried, and I would have listened and kissed at her tears as they pooled in her eyes.
John GreenI felt the unfairness of it, the inarguable injustice of loving someone who might have loved you back but can't due to deadness.
John GreenMa'am," Augustus said, nodding toward her, "Your daughter's car has just been deservingly egged by a blind man. Please close the door and go back inside or we'll be forced to call the police.
John GreenThe Romans knew it: quod me alit me extinguit, they said: That which nourishes me, extinguishes me.
John GreenThe ideas of directing attention outward, trying to imagine other people complexly, trying not to see myself as the center of the universe - these concepts have become important to me, and I hope they're at work in my life on a minute-by-minute basis.
John GreenDo you ever wonder whether people would like you more or less if they could see inside you? But I always wonder about that. If people could see me the way I see myselfโif they could live in my memoriesโwould anyone, anyone, love me?
John GreenIn the end, I had to call myself a faggot, which really annoyed me, because 1. I don't think that word should ever be used by anyone, let alone me, and 2. As it happens, I am not gay, and furthermore, 3. Chuck Parson made it out like calling yourself a faggot was the ultimate humiliation, even though there's nothing at all embarrassing about being gay.
John Green