Leaving people to jumped conclusions is sometimes simpler than explaining a complicated truth
Gayle FormanGirlfriend is such a stupid word. I couldn't stand calling her that. So, we had to get married, so I could call her 'wife.
Gayle FormanBy that point, itโll have been more than year since I met Lulu. Any sane person would say itโs too late. It already felt too late that first day, when I woke up in the hospital. But even so, Iโve kept looking. Iโm still looking.
Gayle FormanMy stomach lurched, an appetizer before the full portion of heartache I had a feeling was going to be served at some point soon.
Gayle FormanDear Willem: Iโve been trying to forget about you and our day in Paris for nine months now, but as you can see, itโs not going all that well. I guess more than anything, I want to know, did you just leave? If you did, itโs okay. I mean itโs not, but if I can know the truth, I can get over it. And if you didnโt leave, I donโt know what to say. Except Iโm sorry that I did. I donโt know what your response will be at getting this letter, like a ghost from your past. But no matter what happened, I hope youโre okay.
Gayle FormanI'm also starting to wonder something else. If maybe the point of this crazy quest I'm on wasn't to help me find Willem. Maybe it was to help me find someone else entirely.
Gayle FormanSuddenly, it's all too much. Bryn and the bump watch. Vanessa with my high school yearbook. The idea that nothing's sacred. Everything's fodder. That my life belongs to anyone but me.
Gayle FormanWhen I was little, I used to go to the local ice-skating rink. In my mind, I always felt like I could twirl and jump, but when I got out onto the ice, I could barely keep my blades straight. When I got older, that's how it was with people: In my mind, I am bold and forthright, but what comes out always seems to be so meek and polite. Even with Evan, my boyfriend for junior and most of senior year, I never quite managed to be that skating, twirling, leaping person I suspected I could be. But today, apparently, I can skate.
Gayle Forman