there's something nice about knowing that i'm not the only one who doesn't quite fit the part.
Jodi PicoultAnd if your parents have you for a reason, then that reason better exist. Because once it's gone, so are you.
Jodi PicoultI have no idea what Andrew might have done, and I do not ask. She believes that I can fix this, and like always, that's enough to make me think that I can. "I'll take care of it,: I say, when what I really mean is: I'll take care of you.
Jodi PicoultI know what it's like to start something and have it suddenly grow out of control. And you want to get rid of it, because it's hurting you and everyone else around you, but every time you try to do that, it consumes you again.
Jodi PicoultEventually, I told myself not to expect anything from him, and as a result it has gotten easier for me to take what comes.
Jodi PicoultShe wondered if this was true of every parent: if, prior to having children, they all used to be someone else.
Jodi PicoultAll writers start with a layer of truth, don't they? If not, their stories would be nothing but spools of cotton candy, a fleeting taste wrapped around nothing but air.
Jodi PicoultRest easy, real mothers. The very fact that you worry about being a good mom means that you already are one.
Jodi PicoultI am not keeping my distance because it is uncomfortable for me, but because it is uncomfortable for them.
Jodi PicoultIf his voice hasn't been the melody of my life, it's been the bass line, so subtle you don't notice it until it's missing.
Jodi PicoultNo one ever asks a kid for her opinion, but it seems to me that growing up means you stop hoping for the best, and start expecting the worst.
Jodi Picoult[I] don't think I was trying to kill myself. I just wanted to hurt, and understand exactly whay I was hurting. This made sense: you cut, you felt pain, period.
Jodi PicoultWhen this is over...we will got to the rainforest, or a beach as white as bone. We will eat grapes from the vine, we will swim with sea turtles, we will walk miles on cobblestone streets. We will laugh and talk and confess. We will.
Jodi PicoultThe damage was permanent; there would always be scars. But even the angriest scars faded over time until it was difficult to see them written on the skin at all, and the only thing that remained was the memory of how painful it had been.
Jodi PicoultA dutiful mother is someone who follows every step her child makes...And a good mother is someone whose child wants to follow her.
Jodi PicoultYou can tell yourself that you would be willing to lose everything you have in order to get something you want. But it's a catch-22: all of those things you're willing to lose are what make you recognizable. Lose them, and you've lost yourself.
Jodi PicoultTechnically I've improved - I might turn a metaphor in five words now, where years ago, it would have taken me a paragraph. I can't say it was intentional - but you know what they say about practice making perfect...!
Jodi PicoultI suddenly remember being very little and being embraced by my father. I would try to put my arms around my father's waist, hug him back. I could never reach the whole way around the equator of his body; he was that much larger than life. Then one day, I could do it. I held him, instead of him holding me, and all I wanted at that moment was to have it back the other way.
Jodi PicoultThe wolves knew when it was time to stop looking for what they'd lost, to focus instead on what was yet to come.
Jodi PicoultI think I have sort of gravitated toward issues that I don't know the answers to, because that's what's more interesting for me to write.
Jodi PicoultA lot of the hallmark behaviors of autism - flat affect, stimming, not looking someone in the eye - could very easily be misinterpreted as signs of guilt.
Jodi PicoultSomeone once told me that when you give birth to a daughter, you've just met the person whose hand you'll be holding the day you die.
Jodi PicoultIt felt like I'd been living underground, and for a moment, I'd been given this glimpse of the sky. Once you've seen that, how can you go back where you came from?
Jodi PicoultI think people do things all the time in the name of love that they shouldn't be doing - such is the nature of us.
Jodi PicoultWhat was the point of being able to forgive, when deep down, you both had to admit you'd never forget?
Jodi PicoultThere is a curious thing that happens with the passage of time: a calcification of character... Change isn't always for the worst; the shell that forms around a piece of sand looks to some people like an irritation, and to others, like a pearl.
Jodi PicoultJust when you think you've got your life by the reins, that's when it's most likely to run away with you.
Jodi PicoultI am not a religious man. I have not attended a service for many years. But I do believe in God. My own practice of religion, you could say, it a nonpractice. I personally feel that it's just as worthy on a weekend to rake the lawns of an elderly neighbor or to climb a mountain and marvel at the beauty of this land we live in as it is to sing hosannas or go to Mass. In other words, I think every many finds his own church- and not all of them have four walls - Judge Haig (Page 399)
Jodi PicoultGrief is a curious thing, when it happens unexpectedly. It is a Band-Aid being ripped away, taking the top layer off a family. And the underbelly of a household is never pretty, ours no exception. There were times I stayed in my room for days on end with headphones on, if only so that I would not have to listen to my mother cry. There were the weeks that my father worked round-the-clock shifts, so that he wouldn't have to come home to a house that felt too big for us.
Jodi PicoultBut as he grew older, he learned that a word was a powerful thing. An insult didn't have to be shouted to bleed; a vow didn't have to be whispered to make you believe. Hold a thought in your head, and that was enough to change the actions of anyone and anything that crossed your path.
Jodi PicoultYou don't have to say I love you to say I love you," you said with a shrug. "All you have to do is say my name and I know." ..."Can't you hear it?" you said. "When you love someone, you say their name different. Like it's safe inside your mouth.
Jodi PicoultYou know what I noticed when I was with Jacob? In your world, people can reach each other in an instant. There's the telephone, and the fax - and on the computer you can talk to someone all the way around the world. You've got people telling their secrets on TV talk shows, and magazines that publish pictures of movie stars trying to hide their homes. All those connections, but everyone there seems so lonely.
Jodi PicoultWe all want to know what went wrong, even when there isn't really an answer to that question.
Jodi PicoultAnd sometimes, he was less lucid. He'd run around his cell like a caged animal; he'd rock back and forth; he'd swing from topic to topic as if it was the only way to cross the jungle of his thoughts.
Jodi PicoultThat's because you've never been one. You haven't spent years wearing someone else's clothes, taking someone else's name, living in someone else's houses, and working someone else's job to fit in. And if you don't sell out, then you run away... proving you're the Gypsy they said you were all along.
Jodi PicoultThings that break - be they bones, hearts, or promises - can be put back together but will never really be whole.
Jodi PicoultMost people who offer their help do it to make themselves feel better, not us. To be honest, I don't blame them. It's superstition: If you give assistance to the family in need... if you throw salt over your shoulder... if you don't step on the cracks, then maybe you'll be immune. Maybe you'll be able to convince yourself that this could never happen to you.
Jodi PicoultSuddenly I realize that this is what I've been waiting for - a man who depends entirely on me... I dreamed for years of a man who couldn't live without me, a man who pictured my face when he closed his eyes, who loved me when I was a mess in the morning and when dinner was late and even when I overloaded the washing machine and burned out the motor. [My son] stares up at me as if I can do no wrong. I have always wanted someone who treats me the way he does; I just didn't know that I'd have to give birth to him.
Jodi PicoultI believed the reason there was a God was to prevent such atrocities from happening to the same person twice. But nothing prepared me for this: I have done what I've sworn I could never do; I have become my own nightmare... I have lost control.
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