Ah, love. Thatโs what the world has lost. Thereโs no more love, only the illusion of it.
Lauren DeStefanoI think she's brave. I think that nobody has ever believed what she could be capable of. All her life, nobody was listening.
Lauren DeStefanoWords like 'unputdownable' and 'irresistible' are simply not enough for Cat Winters's In the Shadow of Blackbirds. Days after finishing this story, it remains the first thought I have in the morning, and the thing that haunts me until I sleep.
Lauren DeStefanoI wish I had a memory of that first violent shove, the shock of cold air, the sting of oxygen into new lungs. Everyone should remember being born. It doesn't seem fair that we only remember dying.
Lauren DeStefanoI shake my head, watching snow tumble and swirl from an all-white sky. The world seems so clean if you only look up
Lauren DeStefanoHope, that risky, illustrious thing. It should have gone extinct by now, but we keep it alive.
Lauren DeStefanoEveryone should remember being born. It doesn't seem fair that we only remember dying.
Lauren DeStefanoTell me about yourself." "Myself?" He looks confused. "Yes," I say, patting the mattress. "You know all there is to know," he says, sitting beside me. "Not true," I say. "Where were you born? What's your favourite season? Anything." "Here. Florida," he says. "I remember a woman in a red dress with curly brown hair. Maybe she was my mother, I'm not sure. And summer. What about you?" The last part is said with a smile. He smiles so infrequently that I consider each one a trophy.
Lauren DeStefanoShe's beautiful and graceful, and she is very compassionate and loyal when you aren't responsible for the murder of her family.
Lauren DeStefanoWhen I am writing anything in general, I just want to tell the story that exists in my head; I don't try to write a parable or make a point.
Lauren DeStefanoHer mind is a bird that's trapped inside her skull, flapping and thrashing, never breaking free.
Lauren DeStefanoFall has always been my favorite season. The time when everything bursts with its last beauty, as if nature had been saving up all year for the grand finale.
Lauren DeStefanoBut instead of tears, when I press my face against the pillow, a horrible, primal scream comes out of me. It's unlike anything I thought myself capable of. Rage, unlike anything I've ever known.
Lauren DeStefanoThe sullen boy sitting before me is not my husband, and the girl he is fretting over isn't me, will never be me.
Lauren DeStefanoWe can change so many times in our lives. We're born into a family, and it's the only life we can imagine, but it changes. Buildings collapse. Fires burn. And the next second we're someplace else entirely, going through different motions and trying to keep up with this new person we've become.
Lauren DeStefanoThe trick was looking past the illusion, because the exit was never as far away as it seemed.
Lauren DeStefanoLiving in a place like this, she must have learned how to see all the monsters that can hide a person.
Lauren DeStefanoMy worries always lead to dungeons; I can't imagine a worse thing than to be imprisoned for the rest of one's life, especially with so few years to enjoy what little there is.
Lauren DeStefanoWhen we're alive, life consumes us. But when we die, all of the color and the motion is gone so quickly, it's as though it can no longer stand to be wasted on us.
Lauren DeStefanoIt isnโt a perfect place. There are no perfect places. But nobody cares about perfection when there are sand castles to build and kites to chase, children that are being born, old hearts that are giving in.
Lauren DeStefano