Having you close like this makes me forget the reasons why this won’t work. We will never work.

It didn't mean forever but for right now I wanted Rush to be my first. He wouldn't be my last. A stop I might never forget or get over. That was what scared me the most. Not being able to move on.

Inside I knew he was meant to be the guy that taught me about life. Even if he broke my heart eventually.

This is what it feels like to care about someone who doesn't feel the same. I'd only known how it felt to love someone who loved me just as fiercely. I'd never known rejection. I'd never wanted someone who didn't want me. The longing didn't go away with rejection.

Did you really think I would be this excited about college if I thought I'd be leaving my girl behind?

The emptiness where I used pain to fill the hole no longer controls me, no longer calls me because of you.

Don't frown beautiful, you fascinate me.