You want to embrace, but I can't figure out how to hold on to it.

Closeness to another person is like a fear of falling off a building to me. It's really, like, physically painful, and it's a brand of crazy I don't appreciate having.

A long December and there's reason to believe, maybe this year will be better than the last.

If you wrap yourself in daffodils I will wrap myself in pain...

I think I'd been limiting myself in some ways just writing in first person all the time.

Over and over again in my life, I find closeness to other people and proximity to other people really painful; that's part of my mental illness, social anxiety. Closeness to other people is really hard, but it's also a shame because it's all you want too. But it doesn't always work.

You want to embrace, but I can't figure out how to hold on to it.