You are doing better than you think you are.
You will find truth more quickly through delight than gravity. Let out a little more string on your kite.
How would I be doing this differently if I were WILLING to let it be easy?
As you recognize that you already own the wholeness you seek, and no one outside you can give you more than you already are, dysfunctional situations will evaporate like bad dreams exposed to the morning sun.
Use pain as a stepping stone, not a camp ground.
The difficulties of life do not keep you from greatness. They show you to its door.