Knowing what [Christ] knew , knowing all about mankind--ah! who would have thought that the crime is not so much to make others die, but to die oneself--confronted day and night with his innocent crime, it became too difficult to go on. It was better to get it over with, to not defend himself, to die, in order not to be the only one to have survived, and to go elsewhere, where, perhaps, he would be supported.
Albert CamusThere is always a certain hour of the day and of the night when a manโs courage is at its lowest ebb, and it was that hour only that he feared.
Albert Camus