It is so much easier to deal with the dead than with the living. The dead are out of the way, merely characters from stories about the past, never again unreadable, no misunderstandings possible, the pain coming from them stable and manageable. nor do you have to explain yourself to them, to justify the fact of your life.

Outsider means "I will accept the possibility that I don't have responsibility for what is happening inside my domain."

You have to suspend thinking in narratives. The moment you are conscious of yourself the gap opens up. And in this gap, stories are generated.

Your memories become fantasies if they are not shared, and your life in all its triviality becomes a legend.

Memoir implies the need to reveal something about yourself - to recount your life for educational purposes.

Your nightmares follow you like a shadow, forever.

I dont make notes for myself because I either lose them or they make no sense to me at all. I once found a piece of paper with the note: everything. Apparently I made a note to myself not to forget everything!