They want you to think that darkness or evil is only something that gets inflicted on you by the outside world, but I know better, and I think the freak does, too. Sometimes the darkness lives inside you, and sometimes it wins.

I can't do this anymore," I cried, "Why won't you just leave me alone?" Because you would never leave me.

No spinning," I said. I wasn't sure my head or heart could take it. Up close, he was so warm, and so beautiful. I was already dizzy enough.

—I don't want to lose you —Then why are you the one that keeps letting go?

Sometimes you're the one speeding along in a panic, doing too much, not paying attention, wrecking things you don't mean to. And sometimes life just happens to you, and you can't dodge it. It crashes into you because it wants to see what you're made of.

Ruby, I lied before. I would have run. —CG

I used to dream about turning back time, about reclaiming the things I'd lost and the person I used to be.