In each studio there is a human being dressed in the full regalia of his myth fearing to expore a vulnerable opening, spreading not his charms but his defences, plotting to disrobe, somewhere along the night-- his body without the aperture of the heart or his heart with a door closed to his body. thus keeping one compartment for refuge, one uninvaded cell.
Anais NinI looked at it [revolver] as if it reminded me of a crime I had committed with an irrepressible smile such as rises sometimes to peopleโs lips in the face of great catastrophes which are beyond their grasp, the smile that comes at times on certain womenโs faces while they are saying they regret the harm they have done. It is the smile of nature quietly and proudly asserting its natural right to kill.
Anais Nin