I am writing more than I have ever done. My life has come back to me in the most extraordinary way.

I get up at 5.30am, sluice myself and have two Weetabix and some mint tea, before starting to write by 6am.

I like eating out. I like buying beautiful paintings and being surrounded by beautiful things. I have to finance that life. I can barely afford a pension scheme because I don't make enough money.

But I can't and don't ever want to write bell-yanking confetti-tossing hat-throwing poems.

I am writing more than I have ever done. My life has come back to me in the most extraordinary way.

Jenni Fagan is the real thing, and The Panopticon is a real treat: maturely alive to the pains of maturing, and cleverly amused as well as appalled by what it finds in the world.

I write between 5.30am and 9.00. That way, I hope I carry over something from my dream time.