He raped me … he fondled me, he put me on all fours, and had sex with me.

Most of my escapades were getting my Labrador dog into the back of my car to drive to Brooklyn where I worked at Avenue M Studios shooting a soap opera and battling being a 17 to 18-year-old playing twins being afraid that I was going to get fired, because who wouldn't fire me? I had no idea what I was doing.

And for anyone who ever thought that Ellen and I broke it off because of sexuality, you couldn't be more mistaken. And for anyone who thought my mother's prayers had anything to do with me marrying a man, forget it.

I told my mother at about the seventh year of therapy that I had been abused sexually by my father and she hung up the phone on me.

Are people angry with me? Sure, anything you do in your life, people are going to be angry at you.

I believe I went through a divorce. My relationship with Ellen is no less significant as a marriage than my relationship to Coley.

Before, I just spewed whatever it was I thought about everything. I tend to be more contemplative now