I think dying is the ultimate high...

In terms of having high hopes that the level of consciousness will get higher and higher, yeah.

...whatever I ended up doing with my life,I wanted to people feel the way this music was making me feel.

I had not had any drugs for 5 years but then I relapsed again. I have also smoked nearly everything. Every day it was a battle to recover, which I fought for my son and myself.

My days are whatever I want them to be. I don't have to go worry about chasing some chemical to make me feel OK for a minute, and then make me feel worse.

I stopped hating and started just being. My whole life, I had been the most defensive person you'd meet, unable to tolerate any criticism. But now I started listening and being.

I'm still a little bent, a little crooked, but all things considered, I can't complain.