...for the first time in my life, a voice went off in my head:'You have no power over what happens in your life. Drugs dictate exactly what you're going to do. You've taken your hands off the steering wheel, and you're going wherever the drug world takes you.' That had never changed. The feeling would well up inside of me, and no matter how much I loved my girl or my band or my friends or my family, when that siren song 'Go get high now' started playing in my head, I was off.

My work was done, so it was time to start digging my grave again.

That's a spiritual lifestyle, being willing to admit that you don't know everything and that you were wrong about some things. It's about making a list of all the people you've harmed, either emotionally or physically or financially, and going back and making amends. That's a spiritual lifestyle. It's not a fluffy ethereal concept.

I know I'm in the band and everything but sometimes I just have to rock out to the John Frusciante Experience.

You know I love pot, and I love beer, but I am totally sober, just because it completely stopped working for me.

I have to laugh at myself.

Personally, I am stuck with one foot in the past and one foot in the present.