When you don't get what you want, it just makes you accept real life.
I hate shopping. I don't go shopping. If I do, I run in and out.
Acting to me is real life - I don't act.
Storms and darkness scared me, but somehow it encouraged me to learn about nature and I think nothing's dark, dark is beautiful too.
I have a blog in Chinese, which you can follow, Chinese signs. But I don't even update at all, often I don't.
Because of the Chinese culture of obedience, you don't ask questions... You follow and obey.