To me, music was about being accepted and escaping from this crummy existence.
I'm from a lower middle class background; all my family were immigrants.
There's a lot of days where you feel forgotten.
Around the mid-'90s every hair guy who would have been in a hair-metal band got his tattoos and suddenly decided he was alternative. It just became like a thing.
I went to see a shaman. He put his hands on me, and I cried like a baby for an hour.
I'd reached a point where there was a direct conflict between what I was trying to be and who I really was.