Indie world won't have me, and mainstream world treats me like an alien, but here I am still floating between these two worlds.

The weird nihilism that permeates Mellon Collie is extremely relevant to what's going on right now. So many kids are intelligent and articulate, but they don't know what to do with themselves.

I was brought up Roman Catholic. I'm not even baptized.

I look at other members of my generation who have basically done one thing, and one thing well, and have been handsomely rewarded for it.

In the music business I am surrounded by people who don't view music as a sacred voice. They view music as something that they can use and exploit, often times lazily. They have no sense of the tradition, they have no sense of honor about those who came before and charted the path.

I realize I'm a mirror.

Like any form of death, at some point you just have to get up and say yeah I'll take it, whatever's gonna happen is gonna happen and sorta chop your head off. It's easy to avoid all that...there's always another moment, another girl, another high, another drug, there's always something to distract you.