It's one thing to be struggling and not really making money in your early 20s and figuring out your life. Early 30s, you start to wonder, is this ever going to happen?

I am invisible in gay bars.

I never fully committed to the child actor thing. I also liked being a regular kid and being a student.

I couldn't just get up every day and be miserable and complain.

A lot of people in Hollywood, and everywhere pretty much, operate on fear. No one wants to get fired, so everyone's scared to take a chance. There's money involved, and there are careers and reputations on the line.

I thought I was going to be like Kevin Spacey in college.

It was pop culture, entertainment, Hollywood, award shows - these are the things that really captivated me as a kid. I would watch the Oscars and every award show with my parents. I would make lists of who was going to win.