I've been pretty fortunate.

It's a difficult job to do, but that is why we do it. Only so many people can do it. But it, it enables you to... for a brief period of time to kind of get away. You have to go back and deal with, but it's a good escape.

You're never guaranteed about next year. People ask what you think of next season, you have to seize the opportunities when they're in front of you.

But when you lose a family member or something tragic happens, that stays with you forever. You never get over it. Knowing that you have to deal with that for the rest of your life... Football is important, but not as important as you once thought it was.

I may be a successful football player, but I feel like such a failure.

I think my stubbornness, hardheadedness and stupidity is what has allowed me to play for 20 years.

If I can change than anyone can change. I promise you that.