All music has political dimensions because it suggests a way of being.
Everybody is entertained to death.
Be the first to not do what nobody has ever thought of not doing before.
A big ego isn't necessarily a bad thing. A big ego means that you have some confidence in your abilities, really, and that you're prepared to take the risk of trying them out.
Nearly all the things I do that are of any merit at all start off just being good fun.
What happens with notation is that it reduces things to a language which isn't necessarily appropriate to them. In the same way that words do, you get a much cruder version of what was actually intended.