I can't sit down long enough to absorb any kind of learning.
You only get better by playing.
I play a percussion instrument, not a musical saw; it needs no amplification. Where it's needed, they put a microphone in front of the bass drum. But, I don't think it's necessary to play that way every night.
There were so many individual styles thirty or forty years ago.
If you think you stink, you probably do.
So, practice, particularly after you've attained a job, any kind of job, like playing with a four piece band, that's... an opportunity to develop.