Of Course God does not consider you hopeless. If He did, He would not be moving you to seek Him (and He obviously is)... Continue seeking Him with seriousness. Unless He wanted you, you would not be wanting Him.
C. S. LewisNever forget that when we are dealing with any pleasure in its healthy and normal and satisfying form, we are, in a sense, on the Enemyโs (Godโs) groundโฆHe [God] made the pleasure: all our research so far has not enabled us to produce one. All we can do is to encourage the humans to take the pleasures which our Enemy [God] has produced, at at times, or in ways, or in degrees, which He [God] has forbidden.
C. S. LewisThe real job of every moral teacher is to keep bringing us back to the simple principles, which we're so anxious not to see.
C. S. Lewis