Don't worry. If you really want to, you will Whether you'll like it when you do is another question.
C. S. LewisNothing, not even the best and noblest, can go on as it now is. Nothing, not even what is lowest and most bestial, will not be raised again if it submits to death. It is sown a natural body, it is raised a spiritual body. Flesh and blood cannot come to the Mountains [heaven]. Not because they are too rank, but because they are too weak. What is a Lizard compared with a stallion? Lust is a poor, weak, whimpering whispering thing compared with that richness and energy of desire which will arise when lust has been killed.
C. S. LewisThe distinction between pretending you are better than you are and beginning to be better in reality is finer than moral sleuth hounds conceive.
C. S. Lewis