Of course God does not consider you hopeless. If He did He would not be moving you to seek Him (and He obviously is). What is going on in you at present is simply the beginning of the treatment. Continue seeking with cheerful seriousness. Unless He wanted you, you would not be wanting Him.

If you are really a product of a materialistic universe, how is it that you don't feel at home there?

A blessed spirit is a mould ever more and more patient of the bright metal poured into it, a body ever more completely uncovered to the meridian blaze of the spiritual sun.

You thought you were being made into a decent little cottage but He is building a palace. He intends to come & live in it Himself

Ideally, we should like to define a good book as one which 'permits, invites, or compels' good reading

One can regard the moral law as an illusion, and so cut himself off from the common ground of humanity.

All shall be done, but it may be harder than you think.