For me, having it all is being paid to write novels.

As Im writing, certain things become clear to me and certain things begin to feel right and make sense. The pieces start to fall into place.

A writer must be fearless. A writer has to be like a clawed animal." -The Carrie Diaries pg. 337

The heart wants what the heart wants," she says, somewhat cryptically. I purse my lips in disapproval. "You'd think the heart would know better.

The '80s was all about this idea that women could have it all. You could have a career, and you could have a husband, and you could have children.

At first, being with Sebastian was like being in the middle of the best dream I'd ever had - but now it mostly feels exhausting. I'm up one minute and down the next; questioning what I say and do. Even questioning my sanity.

I'm certainly not going to put my life on hold for him.