Because for most of us, suicide is a moment we'll never choose. It's only for people like Lexy, who know they might choose eventually, who believe they have a choice to make.
Carolyn ParkhurstI wake up in that state of grief when you can tell you've been mourning even in your sleep.
Carolyn ParkhurstHow can it be, I wondered, that we can be lying in bed next to a person we love wholly and helplessly, a person we love more than our own breath, and still ache to think of the one who caused us pain all those years ago? It's the betrayal of this second heart of ours, its flesh tied off like a fingertip twined tightly round with a single hair, blue-tinged from lack of blood. The shameful squeeze of it.
Carolyn ParkhurstHad I known but yesterday what I know today, Iโd have taken out your two grey eyes and put in eyes of clay. And had I known but yesterday youโd be no more my own, Iโd have taken out your heart of flesh and put in one of stone.
Carolyn ParkhurstPerhaps she saw before her a lifetime of walking on the ruined earth and chose instead a single moment in the air.
Carolyn ParkhurstI remember my wife in white.' It just made people weep to hear it...Everybody just thought it was the saddest sentence that was ever written. And it didn't matter if I never wrote another word. This one sentence had put an end to the need for any future sentences. I had said it all.
Carolyn Parkhurst