Somewhere along the way, without me even noticing, I grew up Alex. For once, I couldnโt take advice from anyone around me about what I should or shouldnโt do. I couldnโt go running to mum and dad and I canโt compare my marriage to anybody elseโs, we all follow our own rules.
Cecelia AhernAnd that is how Goodwin problems were always fixed. Fix them on the surface but don't go to the root, always ignoring the elephant in the room. I think that morning was when I realized I'd grown up with an elephant in every room of my life. It was practically our family pet.
Cecelia AhernYou gotta be rich to be insane, Hol. Losing your mind is not a luxury for the middle class.
Cecelia AhernShe didn't feel thirty. But then again again, what was being thirty supposed to feel like? When she was younger, thirty seemed so far away, she thought that a woman of that age would be so wise and knowledgeable, so settled in her life with a husband and children and a career. She had none of those things. She still felt as clueless as she had felt when she was twenty, only with a few more gray hairs and crow's feet around her eyes.
Cecelia AhernItโs hard for everyone isnโt it? Anyone who says itโs easy is a liar. Thereโs this huge divide between me and Alex right now because I feel like weโre living in such different worlds, I donโt know what to talk about with him anymore. And we used to be able to talk all night. He phones once a week and I listen to what heโs been up to during the week and try to bite my tongue every time I go into another Katie story. Truth is I have nothing other to talk about but her and I know it bores people. I think I used to be interesting once upon a time.
Cecelia Ahern