Perhaps it would have been easier if I said that not being able to find something is like suddenly not remembering the words to your favorite song that you knew by heart. Itโs like suddenly forgetting the name of someone you know really well and see every day, or the name of a television show you watched for years. Itโs something so frustrating that it plays on your mind over and over again because you know thereโs an answer but no one can tell you it. It niggles and niggles at me and I canโt rest until I know the answers.
Cecelia AhernYes it's difficult. Yes it's horrible. Yes it's the worst thing that has ever happen in my whole life. But I just can't give up.
Cecelia AhernSome people go through life searching and never find their soul mates. They never do. You and I did, we just happened to have them for a shorter period of time. It's sad, but it's life.
Cecelia AhernI just need to do something new.... I've got the big remote control of life in my hands, and I'm ready to start pushing some buttons.
Cecelia AhernThereโs something completely unnerving about seeing your parents upset. I suppose itโs because theyโre supposed to be the strong ones, but thatโs not just it. Ever since people are kids they use their parents as some sort of measurement for how bad a situation is. When you fall on the ground really hard and you canโt figure out whether it hurts or not you look to your parents. If they look worried and rush toward you, you cry. If they laugh and smack the ground saying โBold ground,โ then you pick yourself up and get on with it.
Cecelia AhernWhen you drop a glass or a plate to the ground, it makes a crashing sound. When a window shatters, a table breaks, or a picture fall of the wall, it makes noise. But as for your heart, when that breaks, it's completely silent... and you almost wish there was a noise to distract you from the pain.
Cecelia Ahern