If it were possible to have a life absolutely free from every feeling of sin, what a terrifying vacuum it would be.
Cesare PaveseAt great periods you have always felt, deep within you, the temptation to commit suicide. You gave yourself to it, breached your own defenses. You were a child. The idea of suicide was a protest against life; by dying, you would escape this longing for death.
Cesare Pavese