What a woman wants is a reaction. What a man wants is a woman.

I never pump up my vulgarity. I wait for it to arrive in its own terms.

and even the trees we walked under seemed less than trees and more like everything else.

stay with the beer. beer is continuous blood. a continuous lover.

there's no chance at all: we are all trapped by a singular fate.

I had decided against religion a couple of years back. If it were true, it made fools out of people, or it drew fools. And if it weren't true, the fools were all the more foolish. What I need is a good doctor, I thought. You either lived or died.

I had no interests. I had no interest in anything. I had no idea how I was going to escape. At least the others had some taste for life. They seemed to understand something that I didn’t understand. Maybe I was lacking. It was possible. I often felt inferior. I just wanted to get away from them. But there was no place to go. Suicide? Jesus Christ, just more work. I felt like sleeping for five years but they wouldn’t let me.