Cautiously, I allowed myself to feel good at times. I found moments of peace in cheap rooms just staring at the knobs of some dresser or listening to the rain in the dark. The less I needed the better I felt.

since some people had told me that I was ugly, I always preferred shade to the sun, darkness to light

It was like the beginning of life and laughter. It was the real meaning of the sun

There's music in everything, even defeat

pain is absurd because it exists, nothing more.

I went to the bathroom and threw some water on my face, combed my hair. If I could only comb that face, I thought, but I can't.

Figuring the average poet starts at 16, I am 23.