Different is not deviant, no matter what the world may say. You have the moral obligation to love yourself.
Concealment makes the soul a swamp. Confession is how you drain it.
I know a bigot when I see a bigot.
I was always a relatively quiet and introspective kid.
Trying hard and working hard is its own reward. It feeds the soul. It affirms your will and your power. And it radiates from you, lighting the way for all those who see you.
There can be moments in your life where you may feel attracted to someone depending on circumstance, depending on the person of one gender or another, and sometimes where that is less of an influence in your life.