I hate my body Hate what it remembers. Hate what it let him do.

I know you're upset, I know you're scared, but don't walk away.

And I'm still alive. That's what I have to focus on. Because I want to live. Even now I can't let myself give up. And that's something I didn't know about myself before - that I have such dogged determination and strength. That I can be completely focused on a goal and work long past what I thought my endurance was, when I have to.

You can see when someone's been hurt the way I was. It's obvious. Something changes in their eyes; pain becomes their center, even when they try to hide it.

My scars show pain and suffering, but they also show my will to survive. They're part of my history that'll always be there.

In Maybe I Will, Laurie Gray writes about important topics that teens need to talk about, including sexual assault, friendship, and alcoholism or self-destructive behaviors that result from trauma. Maybe I Will may help some teens know they're not alone.

If I don’t do what feels right to me, what I need and want to do, then am I really living?