The one you love and the one who loves you are never, ever the same person.
The problem with every story is you tell it after the fact.
Don't do what you want. Do what you don't want. Do what you're trained not to want. Do the things that scare you the most.
Now is the autumn of our ennui.
It is a hundred-year-old witch book, bound in human skin and probably written in ancient cum...YOU lick it!
If you start in the pit of despair with these profane, awful things, even a glimmer of hope or awareness is going to occur that's much brighter coming from this dark, awful beginning.