The world of modelling can be hard; just as cruel as it is glamorous.

Infertility costs an average of about $16-20,000 per procedure, and you don't always get pregnant the first time. I had to go through it seven times. And adoption and surrogacy are not covered through insurance companies.

There's always someone following your next step.

When I got the call from [Hugh] Hefner... I thought, "Wow - at 40, they still want me?" And I thought it's almost an inspiration - like a "you go, girl" moment. I feel empowered that you can be married and and have three children and still be sexy and confident and look great.

My mom would have killed me before, but I'm an adult woman now, and I'm ready to show the world that you can have it all at 40 - be fabulous, 40, and pose for Playboy.

I made my career off posing in swimsuits and doing all the swimsuit issues and posters.

You check the pregnancy test every month, and when it comes up negative it can start to wear on you