For at the hour of death you became a celebrated film star, it is a moment of glory for everyone, when the choral music scales the top notes.
Clarice LispectorFor only when I err do I get away from what I know and what I understand. If "truth" were what I can understand, it would end up being but a small truth, my-sized. Truth must reside precisely in what I shall never understand.
Clarice LispectorI write as if to save somebodyโs life. Probably my own. Life is a kind of madness that death makes. Long live the dead because we live in them.
Clarice LispectorWhat I want is to live of that initial and primordial something that was what made some things reach the point of aspiring to be human.
Clarice LispectorReality prior to my language exists as an unthinkable thought. . . . life precedes love, bodily matter precedes the body, and one day in its turn language shall have preceded possession of silence.
Clarice LispectorNo it is not easy to write. It is as hard as breaking rocks. Sparks and splinters fly like shattered steel.
Clarice LispectorIt is because I dove into the abyss that I am beginning to love the abyss I am made of.
Clarice LispectorI ask myself: is every story that has ever been written in this world, a story of suffering and affliction?
Clarice LispectorAnd now -- now it only remains for me to light a cigarette and go home. Dear God, only now am I remembering that people die. Does that include me? Don't forget, in the meantime, that this is the season for strawberries. Yes.
Clarice LispectorWhether she won or lost, she would continue to wrestle with life. It would not be with her own life alone but with all of life. Something had finally been released within her. And there it was, the sea.
Clarice LispectorLove is so much more deadly than I had thought, love is so much inherent as the very lack, and we are guaranteed by a need to be renewed continuously. Love is now, is forever. There is just the blow of grace - call it passion.
Clarice LispectorEverything in the world began with a yes. One molecule said yes to another molecule and life was born.
Clarice LispectorToday at school I wrote an essay about Flag Day which was so beautiful, but ever so beautiful - for I even used words without really knowing what they meant.
Clarice LispectorBut I welcome the darkness where the two eyes of that soft panther glow. The darkness is my cultural broth. The enchanted darkness. I go on speaking to you, risking disconnection: Iโm subterraneously unattainable because of what I know.
Clarice LispectorAnd even sadness was also something for rich people, for people who could afford it, for people who didn't have anything better to do. Sadness was a luxury.
Clarice LispectorPutting my hand in someone elseโs has always been my definition of happiness. Before I fall asleep, often - in that small struggle not to lose consciousness and go into the greater world - often, before I get up the courage to go into the vastness of sleep, I pretend that someone has my hand in theirs, and then I go, go to that enormous absence of form that is sleep. And when even after that I donโt have courage, I dream.
Clarice LispectorMy life, the most truthful one, is unrecognizable, extremely interior, and there is no single word that gives it meaning.
Clarice LispectorIn the world there exists no aesthetic plane, not even the aesthetic plane of goodness.
Clarice LispectorEven great men are only truly recognized and honored once they are dead. Why? Because those who praise them need to feel themselves somehow superior to the person praised, they need to feel they are making some concession.
Clarice LispectorThings were somehow so good that they were in danger of becoming very bad because what is fully mature is very close to rotting
Clarice LispectorI just know that I don't want cheating. I refuse. I deepened myself but I don't believe in myself because my thought is invented.
Clarice LispectorThe mystery of human destiny is that we are fated, but that we have the freedom to fulfill or not fulfill our fate: realization of our fated destiny depends on us. While inhuman beings like the cockroach realize the entire cycle without going astray because they make no choices.
Clarice LispectorLove is now, is always. All that is missing is the coup de grรขce- which is called passion.
Clarice LispectorWho has not asked himself at some time or other: am I a monster or is this what it means to be a person?
Clarice LispectorI have grown weary of literature: silence alone comforts me. If I continue to write, itโs because I have nothing more to accomplish in this world except to wait for death. Searching for the word in darkness. Any little success invades me and puts me in full view of everyone. I long to wallow in the mud. I can scarcely control my need for self-abasement, my craving for licentiousness and debauchery. Sin tempts me, forbidden pleasures lure me. I want to be both pig and hen, then kill them and drink their blood.
Clarice LispectorI do not know much. But there are certain advantages in not knowing. Like virgin territory, the mind is free of preconceptions. Everything I do not know forms the greater part of me: This is my largesse. And with this I understand everything. The things I do not know constitute my truth.
Clarice LispectorHow was she to tie herself to a man without permitting him to imprison her? And was there some means of acquiring things without those things possessing her?
Clarice LispectorAnd I want to be held down. I don't know what to do with the horrifying freedom that can destroy me.
Clarice LispectorIgnorance of the law of irreducibility was no excuse. I could no longer excuse myself with the claim that I didn't know the law -- for knowledge of self and of the world is the law that, even though unattainable, cannot be broken, and no one can excuse himself by saying that he doesn't know it. . . . The renewed originality of the sin is this: I have to carry out my unknowing, I shall be sinning originally against life.
Clarice Lispector