I was such a screwup when I got to the big leagues. I was a total idiot.

I tell people all the time that without the fans, I've got nothing.

I don't pitch for contracts.

I had a laptop when they weighed 10 pounds.

Short of baseball and my family, it was gaming. And gaming is a $20-million to $200-million multi-year effort. It's an insane, stupid and utterly irresponsible act. But I did it.

I've had teammates I didn't get along with, who hasn't? I've never had a teammate call me a bad guy, while he was my teammate, and if he did when I was gone what kind of teammate was he anyway?

I've got a wife, four kids, a business, and a baseball career.