Short of baseball and my family, it was gaming. And gaming is a $20-million to $200-million multi-year effort. It's an insane, stupid and utterly irresponsible act. But I did it.

I am human, when people write bad stuff about me it bothers me, but I know that will never end.

The things I was allowed to experience, the people I was able to call friends, teammates, mentors, coaches and opponents, the travel, all of it, are far more than anything I ever thought possible in my lifetime.

I've made mistakes, I've misspoke, I am sure I will again sometime, but that happens, that's part of being human in my book. I'm OK with that. I've never done it maliciously, ever.

The money I saved during baseball was probably all gone. I'm tapped out.

In my mind, I never doubted whether I was going to achieve what I wanted to do. I just had to decide what it is I wanted to do.

Trust me, I have never written a speech in my life, and if I have my way, I never will.