Short of baseball and my family, it was gaming. And gaming is a $20-million to $200-million multi-year effort. It's an insane, stupid and utterly irresponsible act. But I did it.

I am human, when people write bad stuff about me it bothers me, but I know that will never end.

I had the perfect job for a gamer. From February to October, I'd get up at 7 in the morning with nothing to do but play games until I had to be at the park around 1 or 2 o'clock. When I got back after the game, I played until 3 or 4 in the morning.

I'm a good person. I don't wish hateful things on people. I don't hate anybody. I know that I treat people right.

The most important to me is, Theo is a good person first and foremost. And I think that has a lot to do with it. He's not deceitful. He's an honest guy, a good guy. There's a lot more to this thing than it being a job for him, being born and raised here, the Red Sox being as important as they are to him. Above all else, Theo understands he's a compromiser. Theo understands that the clubhouse is our home. He doesn't invade that privacy often. When he does, he doesn't make you uncomfortable and that says as much about him as anything.

Have I said dumb things? Absolutely, who hasn't? But I have never backed away from being called out on something I did or said wrong.

People love to say we get paid a lot of money to play a game, but it stopped being a game when you start getting paid.