I'd always felt very strongly in the power of vocation.

Just stay alive, no matter what occurs! I will find you. No matter how long it takes, no matter how far. I will find you!

I became conflicted in my late teens.

There must've been some part of me that wanted to make my mark. But there was never a defining moment.

You don't merely give over your creativity to making a film - you give over your life! In theatre, by contrast, you live these two rather strange lives simultaneously; you have no option but to confront the mould on last night's washing-up.

Leaving a role is a terrible sadness. The last day of the shooting is surreal. Your soul, your body and your mind are not ready at all to see the end of this experience. In the following months after a film shoot, one feels a deep sense of void.

I suppose it's a very highly developed form of denial, but some part of me completely denies that I'm a performer.