No. You know this is wrong and you want to feel better about it. You don't want to admit your as ruthless and monstrous as the demons you claim to hate.

If he turned his back on humanity now, it would be forever.

I won't die. I won't give those ghouls the pleasure. I'll live and grow strong. I'll escape, then hunt them down and make them suffer.

Real life's nasty. It's cruel. It doesn't care about heroes and happy endings and the way things should be. In real life, bad things happen. People die. Fights are lost. Evil often wins.

You stole from a member of the undead

The moon's a powerful mistress. She can reach through any wall or covering and work her wicked charms.

One of the things is that in times of severe disorder, you can't worry about the dead, only the living.