If you don't have self love you can never find it outside of yourself.
We do have to be a witness to our art.
Really the only person that can let you down is yourself.
Just think about that. I feed 7 people every day. I house, feed and clothe seven people every day. And we have employees at the house. And we have 3 dogs, so I'm just throwing money out.
That's what acting is, it's exploring conflict.
If you can play an asshole you never get to do it in life, so what rich joy there is to go and do that and say awful things to people.