This is the trap of having something to live for: Everything else seems lifeless.

You think you know your possibilities. Then other people come into your life and suddenly there are so many more.

I'm always standing on the edge of something bad.

I don't get this at all. It's like protesting the fact that some people are red-haired.

and when he catches me off guard and says 'i love you' i catch him off guard and say 'i need your help.

I no longer think she's just being nice. She's being kind. Which is much more a sign of character than mere niceness. Kindness connects to who you are, while niceness connects to how you want to be seen.

I think of friendship in terms of love.