But if I didn’t want to be alone, then why didn’t I want to be with anyone else?

We love and we feel and we try and we hope.

I close my eyes. And i scream. If my whole world is crashing down around me, then I am going to make the sound of the crashing. I want to scream until all my bones break.

that's it - hundreds of texts and conversations, thousands upon thousands of words spoken and sent, all boiled down into a single line. is that what relationships become?

Once time is lit, it will burn whether or not you're breathing it in. Even after smoke becomes air, there is the memory of smoke. I am seeing as if by the light of a match, a glimpse of my life and having it feel right.

Please may this not be a game. Please may this not be a game. Because if it’s a game, I know I’m going to lose.

And If only I could, I'd make a deal with God.