so what brings you to the doctor today?" "hmm, im afraid i have the chronic desire to save people" "i know about that. i've got it too. maybe it's catching." "not catching enough

We're as good at talking ourselves out of fear as into it, aren't we? Maybe better.

I could forget that part, but it had to have been true.

Maybe it was wrong, or maybe impossible, but I wanted the truth to be one thing. One solid thing.

The hope was, people like me got to finally find our place in college or in the actual world. People who understood this told you that high school wasn't the actual world, that it was more like a temporary alternate reality you were forced to believe in for four years. A video game you played, where you could never get to the next level no matter how hard you tried.

It's hard to see clearly when your eyes are squinched tight out of fear.

Funny the only two times we use the phrase "seeing someone" are when we are referring to being in a a relationship or getting psychological help.