And when he catches me looking at him, he gives me this incredibly sweet, calm smile, and I think that we've got our lives ahead of us, our whole lives.
Delphine de ViganI used to think things were the way they are for a reason, that there was some hidden meaning. I used to think that this meaning governed the way the world was. But it's an illusion to think that there are good and bad reasons. Grammar is a lie to make us think that what we say is connected by a logic that you'll find if you study it, a lie that gone on for centuries. Because I now know that life just lurches between stability and instability and doesn't obey any law.
Delphine de ViganMy Dad says that we're the meanest to the ones we love because we know they'll still love us.
Delphine de ViganBut sometimes the night reveals the only truth that time passes and things will never be seen the same again.
Delphine de ViganBefore I met No I thought that violence meant shouting and hitting and war and blood. Now I know that there can also be violence in silence and that itโs sometimes invisible to the naked eye. Thereโs violence in the time that conceals wounds, the relentless succession of days, the impossibility of turning back the clock. Violence is what escapes us. Itโs silent and hidden. Violence is what remains inexplicable, what stays forever opaque.
Delphine de ViganAll my life I've felt on the outside wherever I am - out of the picture, the conversation, at a distance, as though I were the only one able to hear the sounds or words that other's can't, and deaf to the words that they hear. As if I'm outside the frame, on the other side of a huge, invisible window.
Delphine de ViganYou can learn to find unknowns in equations, draw equidistant lines and demonstrate theorems, but in real life there's nothing to position, calculate, or guess.
Delphine de ViganIโm not too keen on talking. I always have the feeling that the words are getting away from me, escaping and scattering. Itโs not to do with vocabulary or meanings, because I know quite a lot of words, but when I come out with them they get confused and scattered. Thatโs why I avoid stories and speeches and just stick to answering the questions Iโm asked. All the extra words, the overflow, I keep to myself, the words that I silently multiply to get close to the truth.
Delphine de ViganPeople who think that grammar is just a collection of rules and restrictions are wrong. If you get to like it, grammar reveals the hidden meaning of history, hides disorder and abandonment, links things and brings opposites together. Grammar is a wonderful way of organising the world how you'd like it to be.
Delphine de Vigan