Much as I loved doing 'The Big Breakfast,' it almost became automatic. I need something to keep my brain ticking over, something that I have to concentrate on.

Essex is an amazing county, with its own set of rules. It's a completely different world.

I'd got to that age when I was out on a date with a guy and I would be thinking: Don't mention your age, don't mention that you want a child - because they would just run out the door.

It wasn't through choice that I became a mum at 36. I wanted to be a young mum but things never worked out for me.

I did like hanging out with all the rock'n'roll boys - it was fun but all those relationships didn't work out.

Now I look back and think if I'd spent more time enjoying myself instead of crying into my pillow over men, my 20s would have been fabulous!

Much as I loved doing 'The Big Breakfast,' it almost became automatic. I need something to keep my brain ticking over, something that I have to concentrate on.