First you look for discipline and control. You want to exercise your will, bend the language your way, bend the world your way. You want to control the flow of impulses, images, words, faces, ideas. But there's a higher place, a secret aspiration. You want to let go. You want to lose yourself in language, become a carrier or messenger.
Don DeLilloHe thinks he's happy but it's just a nerve cell in his brain that's getting too much stimulation or too little stimulation.
Don DeLilloHe wanted paper and something to write with, some way to sustain a thought, to place it in the world.
Don DeLillo