Rome is ... an impossible compounding of time, in which no century has respect for any other and all hit you in a jumble at every turn.
Shame can be self-indulgence too.
Obviously, if you don't love life, you can't enjoy an oyster.
Rome is everybody's memory.
To be first-rate at anything you have to stake your all. Nobody's an artist 'on the side'.
I think you write only out of a great trouble. A trouble of excitement, a trouble of enlargement, a trouble of displacement in yourself.